Dreams

I love dreams. Messages from your subconscious, if you will (and if you believe Freud). Our fears, our hopes,our desires, all manifest in the dark as we sleep. And, sometimes you can recall them so vividly that they are remembered 20 years into the future. And, sometimes the second you wake up, you struggle to even recall the last image. I believe in dreams that foretell the future, premonitions. It happens some times.
I had a dream the other night. It was the weirdest thing. I went to a friends house because I felt like I had no other place to go. I get there to discover that he's adopted a little Asian girl. I'm left alone in his house and it isn't even the house he actually lives in (on a side note, I find it very funny how dreams can change small facts--you can be in a place but it's not the exact place or a person who is not the actual person you know. Funny what the mind comes up with). Well, in this house I felt like it was haunted. I felt an uneasiness. I walked over to the oven and lit it. It created a blast. I could feel it in my sleep. No fire, funny enough. Just a combustion. My friend returned home and we found ourselves outside on the sidewalk drinking champagne.
I woke up wondering what it meant. Was I haunted by something in my subconscious? Do I feel like I'm near something explosive? Champagne would signify a celebration of some sort so, have I survived my ghost?
The night after, I had another dream. This time I was performing. I was actually in the cast of Smash (that's a tv show about NYC musicals and the lives of everyone involved, fyi). I was performing with a mix of people from real life and the cast. I was off stage trying to to get into my next costume, but I put it on and realized that it was see through. I panicked that I couldn't go out of stage for everyone to see my underwear, so I started borrowing clothes. Once I think that it's fine, the outfit is see-through again. It was getting closer to my cue and I couldn't go on stage. Then at some point I was in a movie theatre. It was empty and the screen was blank. But there was a crate of chickens in front of it.
Now, chickens apparently symbolize cowardliness and a lack of will power. The only things I can gather from the other part is that I want to be in the spotlight but I'm so scared to let other people see right through me. I don't want to be vunerable. Maybe that's where the chickens come in.
I've been trying to figure out what I'm so scared of, what's haunting me, and what makes me so afraid to be exposed. I hope the third dream helps me out. We need an ending to this story.



Note: I did have a 3rd dream that night. Long story short, I was trying to get a babysitting job and when I got there the twins were frighteningly ugly and their mother was trying to get me to take care of them overnight for only $15 an hour! Apparently babies signify a new beginning. It didn't say anything about ugly babies. A not so good new beginning??

What does it all mean!?!?!